I have walked through many dark places in my life, when I wished that I could find my way out. What I wouldn’t have given for just a brief moment of fresh uncluttered air. Time to think; to pause and just to be. There have been times in my life, when I felt that I was spiraling out of control of my circumstances. I lived for God, I trusted God, and I had faith in God. How could he cause x, y, z to happen to me? I was not a bad person: I was his daughter, and still he let me keep falling… What I didn’t realize was that the greater distress would have occurred, if he didn’t divert my path away from the imminent danger that was lurking behind the next so called perfect plan for me.
I thank God for every time that my plans failed to materialize. I thank God for stopping me from making what seemed like great career moves that would have robbed me of my walk with God, and my health. I thank God that I don’t have a need to over analyze my every decision, because I know that when the Lord is in it, it will come to pass. It doesn’t matter that his will totally wrecked my vision of what I thought my life was supposed to be like. What really does matter is that I have God in my life to make the decisions that I can’t make. When I try to take my life into my own hands, what do you think happens? I fail, and when I fail it’s a miserable failing.
You see, I am not my own, but that’s more than okay, because I belong to Jesus Christ. What more could I possibly ask for?
Lately, I have learned to trust God even more than I have ever had to trust him before. It’s that time when I am seeking for his will in my life.
Lord, what do you want me to be when I grow up? Hmmm. Let me count the times that I have questioned God’s wisdom in matters… I can’t count that high. But, God is still on the throne, and that hasn’t changed. He still loves me, and I am amazed that he could possibly love me after all of the inner whining that I do. I try not to show my frustration to the outside, because I absolutely hate that about others who complain.
Sometimes, I would just like to complain one time. There, I have gotten that out of my system. I don’t have time to waste good energy on complaining. I would rather use my energy on doing the will of God. If there is a lesson to learn from all of my journey, it is this–I still have more to learn–so the best thing I can do is to keep working at it until I learn what it is that the Lord has for me to learn, before he opens the opportunities up for my future. Maybe he doesn’t want me to waste time worrying about the future. Perhaps he is more interested in me, living for today. The bible says that “Today is the day of salvation.”
Isn’t it time to set our houses in order in every area of our lives? We don’t need to feel lost, or distracted, when we put our trust in him. He takes my hand and leads me beside still waters. It is there that I grow deeper in him, as I learn to wait for him to light my path. The roads you travel, today, may be dark, and make you feel a sense of danger, but you can know that the Lord has the way for you to get through your circumstance mapped out, and he is waiting for you to just trust him to lead you through it. Will you take a chance on Him:? He is the way.
He Shall Direct Thy Path This week’s Lattereign reminds us that he will do what he said he will do.