What have I brought to sacrifice?

“Thy mercy, O Lord, is in the heavens; and thy faithfulness reacheth unto the clouds.” Psalm 36:5

I think about how many times I started to write and found that the words would not come. Is it just a dream, or will I have the faith to step out and do something effective? How many lives will be changed as a result of my efforts? I feel so inadequate; but didn’t Moses feel that way before he had to face 40 years in the desert with the responsibility of shepherding the complaining Israelites?

I want to go beyond the mediocre walk with God, but it doesn’t come without sacrifice. What have I brought for a sacrifice?

Broken dreams and shattered hopes. Disappointments and bruised emotions. I brought it all; and gathered it carefully–so fragile, and yet, as I lay it at your feet there is peace. There is a well beginning to spring up within my soul and it’s going to reach the top, someday. It will open up to reveal who I really am; the light of your love will search the deepest parts of my soul, and expose the very depths of my relationship with you.

Will I like what I see? Will there be something to cling to once it has been tried by fire? or, will it all vanish away like my dreams and hopes as a child: to write; to be heard; to be understood?

from journal entry July 3, 2005

About gracemorganwriter

What is a writer? Someone who writes. For me, writing means to observe the world in a fresh way; it gives us encouragement when we are struggling to follow the path, and hope that we can keep pressing towards the mark. Writing gives us grace for the journey, and shines light into the darkened places of our soul.
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